2 Days Later

I suddenly came to realize I should write things down, things that happened to me. These few days I kept remembering stuff which happened when we were starting out. A lot of things has happened, happy memories, yet i cant recall all of them in detail. Maybe its because I cant, that I couldn't feel how dull our relationship has become. I feel it would be good if I could be able to look back at them like a recording. I suddenly felt cold again, when its quiet, I feel lonely. I'm still not able to give it up, I don't want to yet another part of me tells me otherwise. This conflicting fighting within me is killing me. Should I fight on >.