2 Days Later

I suddenly came to realize I should write things down, things that happened to me. These few days I kept remembering stuff which happened when we were starting out. A lot of things has happened, happy memories, yet i cant recall all of them in detail. Maybe its because I cant, that I couldn't feel how dull our relationship has become. I feel it would be good if I could be able to look back at them like a recording. I suddenly felt cold again, when its quiet, I feel lonely. I'm still not able to give it up, I don't want to yet another part of me tells me otherwise. This conflicting fighting within me is killing me. Should I fight on >.

Emotions of Seperation

I cant sleep. Just 5 hours ago, I said what i regard as my official farewell to my GF. It was painful. It has been painful for quite some time. Before this, I was stuck in between not wanting to believe that we're actually splitting. She has a new someone now. Someone who will provide her love and comfort to lessen the pain of separation. What about me?? I have no one. I feel so lonely and drained. Its so quiet.. I hate this T_T. My mind keeps flashing past memories I tried so hard to push away. It's so tired yet I cant sleep. I want someone to hold me.. I miss her. I am lost again. Someone please save me T_T.